"If I could I follow you, if I could..."
exact sentiment of my current state of mind.
The only question that follows is "who is 'you'?"
Burnt in my brain, the pain of betrayal and lies,
and I never understood why, the reasons behind it all.
And now, at this juncture, situations to my left and right so dismal.
I can't look at the past without questioning my decision for the future.
Somehow, I have to decide... hopefully not now.
But there is no escape, the decision has to be made.
Yes, to take steps to correct the wrong, the path is walled with thorns.
The ground is filled with amber coals, some ashes and burning fires.
It is never easy.
Life is such that after going through the pain, Life reaps new meaning.
Yes, the light at the end... so bright and so blinding.
I have yet to decide which path to take, left, right, front and back.
And with no guiding hands to help me choose, I'm left with a hollow heart...
But like what the song said, if I could follow I would...
I have no guts, no strength to leave my life in your hands right now...
I'm still cowering in my corner, wishing I could escape from all this.
