Re-assignment to Hell

Today, my boss just informed me of my re-assignment to S-Bldg.
S-bldg is the prod line that caught fire the other day during my temp support.
Thanks to the Jpn GM having no confidence with the current group, he wants me
to takeover that problem line so that he can leave Sgp with a peace of mind.

But what about my peace of mind?
This position is not for woman, the whole team there are men.
If 3 men cannot control the prod line, how abt me?
And the risk of fire & explosion, and the solvent used in that line
is really hazardous for health & lives.

I turned down the job, but he still insist that I can do a good job.
It is not me that I'm worried about, but is the AGM that is putting me off.
His style is to interfere with everything, criticise everything and accepts nothing.
His mgmt style is to hold the prod line by the scruff and then dictate everything
single moves, and breath down every single neck.

His direction is "no direction", as he will send his men down several lanes, then scold them
for "not following the single lane". He gives instructions without understanding the consequences, and he treats his men like punching bags for him to scold, whack and then use them also as his smoking buddy. He uses people and abuses them, too.

I don't like the prospect of having to lead like puppets on strings.
My way of mgmt is way different than his, and I can foresee problems ahead.
I know the boys will be happy to see me taking the lead, but this is is like sending myself to the
butcher for slaughter.

What can I do?
I know I have to ride the waves, but I don't know how long I can hold on to the board.
I don't want to be thrown off the board, and I don't want to throw myself off the board either.
What shall I do?

Dreamers

I had a sad, and rather wild dream last night.
I woke up with a lump in my throat, I nearly wept.
The dream went like this...

Somehow, I was back to when I was single and I frequently spent my time in KT.
Well, one day, my parents' friends came with their children.
They had several children, young girls & 2 boys slightly older than me.
I got to know them and we talked alot.
But there elder of the 2 boys was not too friendly.
He would just listen and smile once in a while.
Somehow I liked the elder one better.
After they left, we received some gifts & letters from the boys.
It was a nice gesture, and I was happy to receive them.

Then one day, I had to attend a wedding hosted by this family.
I met both of the boys, but then I get to know the elder one better.
We talked, and I got to like him more.
Then a storm came, and all of us had to take shelter at their home.
In the rush, I lost him among the crowds.
When things were okay, I went around looking for him.

Whenever I mention his name, his family members will look
at me strangely.
But then, the younger brother told me something
that surprises me, and it hit me like a bullet.

What he told me was,
"How do you know Abraham? Why are you looking for him?"
I answered "He was with me before...."

But then he said "He's haunting you, cause he passed away sometime ago..."

A chill ran through me. I was so saddened and bewildered by the answer.
I was shocked and frightened and sad at the same time.
I had no tears to cry, but it was the sadness that really pains me.
When I woke up, I was still having this heavy sadness in my heart.

So much for my wild imagination.


anyway, Abraham looks like Matthew McConaughey....heeee...

Nieces & Nephews . . . . .?!

Hi dears,
this is to inform you that yes, I do read your blogs, and i love
every single thing about it.
The pics, the thoughts, the feelings, the side that I hardly knew,
those things that I knew, and all those things that I have yet to know about.
Don't worry, your freedom of expression should not be censored by knowing that
your aunt is reading them.
Just look at it this way, your aunt love you guys enough to take time to read
what you wrote, ok!

Love you guys always!!!!!!!!!

MMMMMMCCCCCCCC

Ha! That sweet words, "Go home & rest....."
The doctor told me that I have fever, but I was not aware of it.
So what did I do? Yup, go home and rest... actually I went home
and fixed the wireless adaptor to the old PC.
Had trouble fixing it, the adaptor was not able to detect the WLAN.
Call the Prolink guys, they helped me out, but then after connection,
I was not able to link to to any website. Call MIO, they can't help either.
They gave me Microsoft helpdesk number.
I called and tell them the error code, they link me to tech person (in KL)
and then the WLAN got disconnected again.
The MS tech guy called Prolink guy, and all 3 of us had conf call.
Finally without any one of their help, I restarted my PC the 20th time,
replug the USB adaptor, and somehow I was connected and surfing again.
The MS guy sternly told the Prolink guy that something is wrong with their adaptor.
So after 2 hours hanging on the phone, I finally got to surf on this old PC again.

Ahhh, technology. Even after years of using it, we cannot run away from product
problems. All these technology somehow make me feel intimidated.
I've always been lost in IT world. Somehow I cannot get the hang of it.
Problems solved, and my fever is still high. But I can't sleep cos my brain is still
processing all these IT stuffs.
MMMMCCCCC, what sweet words these are! If only I can go to sleep now......

Noise, noise, noise

My neighbour and her daughter (9yrs old) have been screaming since the time I reached home (6pm) until now. It is late okay, @ 11.10pm. And her little girl has just slammed the door.
I know that it is none of my business, but I can't help it.
About 2 months back, the noise was so unbearable that I had to called the police to check on the
girl. For 2 weeks I would hear them fighting and the girl crying & wailing like she's been raped,
or roped. When the police came, they confirmed that it was noise from the neighbour,
but then classify it as domestic dispute.
Later that day, I heard the girl screaming & shouting at the mother, but then no response from her. Then it dawn on me that the problem is the girl.
And true enough, from that day onwards, I only hear the girl's voice screaming & shouting at
her mom. She's only quiet when her dad comes home.
And now, it started again. Both mom & daughter having shouting match with each other.
Can you imagine the noise??
I can understand when family have their arguments, and once in a while, fights.
But please, not every day & night!
We are living in close proximity. Even though behind close doors, we can still hear each other.
You don't have to put much effort to listen, cos' we can & do hear things being said.
I wish the mom will just slap her silly. From the looks of it, the girl is the tyrant, and using screams & tantrums to get her way & bullying the mom.
Whenever I meet them at the corridor, I will greet the mom, and look straight at the girl.
I want her to know that we hear the noise she makes everyday.
I've ever bluntly asked the mom if she heard child screaming & shouting.
The mom naturally denies, but I can see the girl throwing a dirty look at me.
Well she can hide, but not for long. One of these days, her mom will snap, and she will
get the taste of her own medicine.
Ahhhh................... peace at last. No noise.........
I guess she's tired cos she got morning school.

Finally, peace at last ...........................................................