It's been awhile since i blog.
I've been very busy with work and what-not.
I'm so tired to the core, that at times i need distraction.
Distraction I have is in the form of a younger subordinate.
And before you go wild with your thoughts, hold your horses.
Nothing fishy or funny is going on.
I just like to think (kind of delusional right now) that this young thing actually admire me as a strong, smart lady boss.
I know I'm flattering myself, well no one is doing it, so let me pacify myself.
You know the kind of feeling you get that someone is secretly watching you, but turn away as soon as you look at him. Well that's the look i'm getting.
I flatter myself by thinking that he admires me, hmmm.........
It's kind of funny, cos at times the conversation we have, can end up with some incoherent words that he mumbles under his breath.
And these words are not to be use lightly (they're not vulgar either), and that makes me wonder what's going on.
Just like the other day, while I was editing his SOP, I told him to do such and such to be clear with the instructions.
His reply was, "never mind, don't care lah, I don't care but I _ you!"
The moment it slip out his mouth, I turn and asked him to repeat.
He replied that it's gone with the wind.
I don't understand it at times, cos he is a brazen fella, who speak up against anyone, even the bossy old manager.
But when it comes to me, he will mumble and speak under low voice,
like trying to, i don't know, conceal his feelings.
He will do things like taking time to wait for me, and get me all kinds of songs i like.
He is patient with me and indulges my incessant talking & nagging, and at times, scolding.
I told him not to butter me up, but he says it's becos "you're beautiful" (and singing it).
I used to blush when he does that, but nowadays I try to get him to talk it out.
But all i'm met with is a wall of chinese songs (sung by him, of course!)
The last few days have been different at work. No distraction cos he's gone for ICT.
So for the next 2.5 weeks I have to bear the hectic days without my distraction to help me get through the long days.
I have other minor distractions, but they are really good friends & subordinates who cheer up my days.
But i miss my distraction, Andreiyevgeny.
Cos' I'm only human.
